Introductions

Hi world!  I have no idea if anyone is ever going to read this blog.  I just feel that this issue is a huge burden for me and there must be other people out there whose partners don't want kids even though they desperately do.

I have been with my husband for 8 years, but we've only been married for two.  OK, technically we are common law married.  I would get regular married, but there is this big issue that I want to resolve before I publicly announce our relationship as a lifelong partnership to our friends and family.  Yeah, you guess it, I want him to decide to have a baby with me.

There are so many emotional issues that come up with this issue that I feel like sharing them on a blog so that someone else who is struggling through the same thing might someday find comfort in my situation.  Maybe it will be resolved in a positive manner someday.  I don't know.  All I know is that right now it is really depressing me and I thought maybe this blog would do something for me or for others.  Or distract me.

I love my dear husband (DH) very much and I really wan to spend the rest of my life with HIM.  I really want to have a baby with HIM, not with some other dude that I haven't met yet and not with some unknown dude who I will have to procure semen from someday when I'm in my mid 30's and desperate for a baby.  I know that he would be a great dad and that, though it's going to be a lot of work, we would be happy.  I just don't know how to get him to see that.

In the future I will write more about my feelings on this issue and his feelings.  I will use this blog as a way to hopefully get out some of my emotions on this issue.  Maybe someone will read it and have really great advice for me.  I know some people say I should just leave him if I know I want kids, but what if he changes his mind and then I never find someone to have kids with?  I had to look a long time before I found someone I click so well with as my DH and I really don't want to have to start looking again :(

If you are in the same situation as me, I'm very sorry.  It sucks.  Sometimes I wish I had just dumped him before I got so emotionally attached because it hurts so much to think that we may have to break up just because of this one issue and that otherwise we get along really well.  It seems like we should be able to make it work.  I keep praying that I will get pregnant accidentally, as there is no way I could poke a hole in our condoms but I just know it would be fine and we would be great parents if he would just give us a chance.  But then I feel like I'm an awful person for  hoping to get pregnant by accident.  This situation just feels hopeless.  If there is anyone out there who had a husband or wife who didn't want kids ever but you got them to change their mind and things worked out well, please leave a comment so I have some hope.